Last week I got very excited when I started to experience mild cramps and a pain like an injection prick from the inside. I was convinced that it might be implantation and truly believed that I was going to be able to get a BFP in time for Mr.Sian’s birthday. However yesterday I woke up with absolutely no PMA (positive mental attitude) at all and just knew that the witch was making her way. She got me in the afternoon – no cramps, no grumpiness, nothing to suggest she was coming except for a sense of... foreboding!
It hit me very hard yesterday, I must have cried about 4 times throughout the afternoon and evening. But I found the silver lining by digging into some very yummy pate on crackers and sharing a bottle of cava followed by a bottle of prosecco with Mr.Sian. Bit of a fuzzy head this morning but a can of Red Bull sorted me right out :)
So here I am again, CD2 of Cycle 10. Sigh...
I’ve decided this month to go for it au naturel... I’m not temping this month or using OPKs. It’s Mr.Sian’s birthday and my friend’s wedding this month which means 3 weekends away (2 for the birthday and 1 for the wedding), so I’m just going to kick back and enjoy it.
I know my body so well now that I will probably still have an idea of when I’ll be ovulating, so I’ll still record changes in cervical mucus on fertilityfriend.com. I’ll still take my supplements – starflower oil, vitamin B6, vitamin D and folic acid – but that’s all I am going to do that will be considered as “trying”. Sex will just be for fun! Okay, there will be a little bit of hope in the back of my mind but the point is that I am more than a little bit consumed by this and I just need to chill the F out a bit.
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