As the title of the blog post says, I am having a grumpy bum day today. I picked up a cold last week which is not the end of the world but being asthmatic it means I always end up suffering really badly. Cue hacking coughs and wheezy breaths. Yuk. Feeling very sorry for oneself today...
I don’t know if being poorly is having a particularly worse effect on my mood but my PMA has gone right out the window. No PMA to be seen! I’m on month 9/cycle 10 of TTC and have convinced myself that it is never going to happen. Mr.Sian’s children stayed over all weekend so had lots of cuddles from them both but it made me start to wonder if that’s as good as it will ever get for me: getting cuddles from other people’s kids.
There was an episode of One Born Every Minute (the US version) a few weeks ago where a woman was giving her up twins for adoption to a couple that had been trying for a ridiculous amount of time, like 10 years. Understandably it was a very emotional episode and I cried my heart out. The faces of the adoptees have really stuck in my mind, you could really see the pain and emotion, and now I’m thinking, is that going to be me one day?!
I know it’s ridiculous to be thinking like this when 9 months is not a huge amount of time in the grand scheme of things. My GP has already said to give it a year and that NHS policy is to try for 2 years but it’s very difficult when getting pregnant is ALL you can think about! Anyway it’s my blog so I’ll be self-indulgent if I want to ;-)
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